another page in chapter 26

I'm Alive!

I have no gone anywhere... physically.  I've been lame and a bad blog-post-er.

 Thank you all for all the awesome comments about our honeymoon. No, I did not get to comment back not because I was not reading them or ignoring them but mainly because my mind just as been elsewhere. 

Your words made me happy & wishing I was playing out my honeymoon

once again. Only four months and we will be on our way to our FIRST year anniversary.

Whoo-Hoo!

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Alright. So where have I been?

If you are up for a lot of reading, continue on...

If not... keep scrolling until you see The End.

Here's my story:

The stress of a job

{deep breath}

So... for a few months now, I've been a little down and out about my jobs.

Let me first say, I love my company. I love what I do and who I work with.

I never come to work dreading it...

Well unless I'm just a lazy ass who wants to sleep all day in bed.

But all seriousness, I don't really have much to say on the negative side.

That being said, I think I am good what I do.

{Rewind}

 A few months back, I was given a promotion.

To make a long story short - that promotion hasn't quite happened yet.

Ha.. yeah! I know.

sucks.major.butthole

Since then, my mind has been on a roll. I told myself I would give til June before starting to find somewhere to work if this "promotion" doesn't start happening.

Two weeks ago Monday, I randomly text-ed a girl I know who does the same line of business and said "Hey Jess! Just curious, is your company hiring or do you know of any company hiring?"

{Fast Forward}

Got the interview. Interview went great. However, I was nervous.

What I thought I was nervous about the interview, I now believe I think I knew in my gut

I didn't really want to be doing this. But I did.

Loved what they had to offer. Offered more than I have now {without my so-called promotion} and offered me that job. They wanted me. I said yes.

April 17th, I turned in my resignation letter.

Tearfully telling my amazing boss {in which would be the position I would have if this promotion would've come... only at a different location} who was thrown overboard, I tried to explain why I

was leaving.

He wasn't telling me to stay but he wanted me to stay by telling me all the reasons

why I wouldn't like it wherever I was going... & basically making my tummy drop by showing me what he brought in monthly.

 "This kind of opportunity {my promotion} is once in a lifetime and if you just wait longer, the company will honor it." -Jack

Then my District Manager called me. The call I did not want to hear.

Basically, begging me to stay. Begging.

I had a few other offices call with their input also. Totally rooting me to no leave.

{Time Out}

If you are reading about my boring issues

there is something you should know

1} I've never been career driven. Really, I haven't.

All my life, I wanted to be a wife with a husband and have lots of children

at home while I was the school PTO mom.

THAT'S where and what I've always wanted to be when I grow up.

2} when I make a decision, I'm there. I don't really ever second question myself

or doubt I am wrong.

3} my gut instinct is how I manage through life trusting it.

It's always right.

4} I love money, yes. Who doesn't? But it is NOT the most important thing in my life.

I rather be in the small house we live in now, completely happy & loving life

than living rich and fancy with an ass of stress piled up.

I live to be happiness and bring happiness. Ya can't take it with you when it's time to head to heaven.

Oh and.. Aaron and I are good where we are at. We don't have financial struggles. 

 Plus, this new job will bring more $$$ in anyway, right?

{Time-In}

I swallowed big and knew that if I could just get through the day,

vacation started the very next day and I wouldn't really have to hear much for the next week.  I left work completely stressed.

{Fast Forward}

I came back to work fresh & feeling good. My DM called and laid the cards out on the table and {begged more} explained why exactly it's taking so long...

His words, his voice... I believed him but wouldn't let myself believe him.

For the past two weeks, I've been losing so much sleep at night.

I have done my pros & cons a million times. I've second questioned myself &

truthfully... I had a lump in my throat but I needed someone to tell me I was messing up

BESIDES my co-workers.  The only thing I kept praying for was that promotion to finally come through.  I prayed for guidance over and over again.

Yesterday, I get a call from my DM, I knew I was about to cry my eyes out

because he was gonna tell me bye & how amazing I am. {baaaha}Kidding. Not really.

But he didn't.

He told me that ...

well I won't go into exact words because you really don't want all that blab.

Basically, he did everything in his power to get me where I should have been two months ago. Due to all the steps and paper work a DM has to go through {& I promise there IS more to this situation but that's a totally different story} - to get me that promotion he

gave me back in February.

Immediately my heart smiled. I knew this is really what I wanted that I did NOT

want to be working else where. I did NOT want anything but my company.

I asked him to give me a few minutes to take all of this in.

Confirmed it with the husband.

Confirmed it with Momma

{not that she has to confirm but Momma always makes me feel better about sticky situations. I need the.. Go-for-it babe!}

Today would've been my last day.

I am still doing my regular job. No moves yet. But I do know that I am on my

way to great happiness and feeling confident about my career....

&& I'm back to working every other Saturday {Ahh shit} for now.

So0o0oo ...

that may or may not have been blog fun-reading material but THAT my friends

is why I've been lame and not being blog friendly. I've been tied up stressing..

something I usually flee from.

The End.

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Last Friday, I FINALLY received this book on my door step.

Sunday morning I woke up extra early in order to have quiet time & start this bloom.

it's changed me.

... Oh Me Gah.

Better than I ever imagined - I'm totally hooked on it.

I've weeped. Laughed. Loved. & completely inspired by Kelle Hampton's words.

If you do not have this, you MUST get it.

Go HERE to see more of the book.

You will not and I say NOT be disappointed.

If you have read or started bloom...

tell me everything. tell me what you think and how you feel about it.

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Last but never least

I want to wish my niece Chloe the happiest 11th birthday ever!

I've been in Aunt-hood for 11 years now and truly, it's been the best gift God could've given a sister.

Up coming Blog Posts:

Answers to these questions {Part 2}

Our Bahamas Vacay

My Bucket List